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Thank you for the warm welcome, everyone!

Hi all. I've been on my healing journey for a few years now, and it's gotten particularly intense since I started working with my new therapist who is trauma informed. Lately, my self-concept is extremely negative, and I feel like I can never do anything right. This has been reinforced by my friends who tell me that I'm too defensive, too disengaged, too hyper vigilant and sensitive, that they can't come to me with any kind of critique without it becoming a conversation about trauma. I know I've been making more social mistakes than usual, and that my affect is changing, and that I can be kind of difficult to be around these days, so I really don't blame them for being upset. I made the decision a few days ago to take some space while I work on myself, and that went over terribly. It feels like they want me around so that they can punish and berate me. I feel like I'm doing the right thing by distancing myself, but my trust in my instincts is so shot that I honestly can't tell! Others who have CPTSD, have you ever experienced this? Am I making another mistake?

Hi everyone. I am very relieved to have found this forum. I have a history of CSA, emotional abuse and neglect and suffer from CPTSD. I have been on a journey of trying to confront and heal from my trauma over the past few years. I look forward to connecting with others to whom I can relate.