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I'm new here. I mentioned in my intro about MDMA assisted therapy, and my psychiatrist brought it up. He seems to shoot from the hip, so that concerns me.

I don't believe it's given often? Just once or twice and then not for a year? I'm starting to open to the idea. I think it helps 70-75% of people?

Passing off the internal suffering that effects each of us in daily life - some many of us are trained by tradition to seek to transfer this to those around us instead of finding healthier outlets.

Yes. This. Intergenerational trauma / abuse. For a while, I actually had empathy for my mother. Now that has slid backwards b/c of how she treats me, partly the elderly / memory / dementia issues and partly b/c scapegoat #1 went no contact and I am scapegoat #2.

I'm the only person in my family who got counseling - ever. As soon as I left home and got into a city (college), I found therapy.

Part of me just wants to cut and run and go no contact, but I know that's not healthy as I am going to be going through a divorce too. Just too much.