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Hi there, I'm hoping this is the right place to ask this, and apologies if there's a space that answers this question.

I was wondering if there's a way to hide the emoticons above the text box? I was sitting down to write a post and find them to be a bit overwhelming. I'm really visually sensitive to the flashing & having so many stark emotional displays feels intense (I've experienced lots of emotional manipulation & also projection, didn't realize how much something like this could impact me). I also tried to resize the page and enlarged the text entry box to see if I could scroll them away, but the part of the page they're set in is really good at making sure they're always visible.

I understand that I could type in another space and paste into here, however I was planning on using this space as a text entry specifically because this feels like a safe container to write things down.

Hi there, happy Thursday. I joined this forum as a way to develop the ability to feel like a community member. I read a lot of new member information last night; it's refreshing to be in a space with such considerate structure. The guidelines felt very transformational for me. I'm used to interacting with guidelines and community organization, but this is one of the first spaces where they're written for my benefit, you know?

I'm not sure what to say about my past. I'm sure there will be other spaces to get into it. I was abused within my FOO in a stereotypical scapegoat roll, and was bullied quite a lot at a young age. As I've gotten older, I've felt more and more like being mixed-race and half-siblings played into this. I also believe a lot of bullying I received was due to people trying to tear me down, plus was taught to believe that other kids would just dislike me. My stories on trauma center heavily around identity and relationship, and feeling fundamentally monstrous and unloveable.

I've developed and improved a lot within the last few years specifically. In some ways, I'm glad that I am finding this forum now, as I've been such a wreck that I don't think I could have engaged in a beneficial way. I'm so happy to be here with you all now.   

I saw the bottle of vitamin D3 capsules in my room and it felt right. I like the idea of vitamin D being the sunlight supplement (and it'll remind me to have my daily vitamins).