Hi all,
You can call me Căpșună. It's taken me many years to get where I am now, and yet as I've read other introductions, feelings of failing are common. I know I'm not, we're not.. but those feelings have been ingrained for so long. I spent years of my childhood thinking every day that that day would be my last, waiting for it. I remember only some of my childhood, much of it is repressed. As a young adult I got stuck with an abusive partner for a few years, until I was close enough to reach out to my dad and stepmother for help. Now I am doing ok, but the thoughts and feelings are so deep it's difficult to believe or trust in anyone. I've never had someone to lean on, or take care of me.. I have been hoping that therapy would be enough for me to keep pushing forward.. but I recently lost my shadow of 14.5 years. My dog was my rock, he was the only support system I've ever really had. Now it feels like I'm lost.. My nightmares have gotten worse.. They're a curse and a blessing, I get to see and hold him again... however it's in addition to my usual night terrors. Anywho, that's my story in a nutshell. It's ok, to not be ok.
Best,
Căpșună
You can call me Căpșună. It's taken me many years to get where I am now, and yet as I've read other introductions, feelings of failing are common. I know I'm not, we're not.. but those feelings have been ingrained for so long. I spent years of my childhood thinking every day that that day would be my last, waiting for it. I remember only some of my childhood, much of it is repressed. As a young adult I got stuck with an abusive partner for a few years, until I was close enough to reach out to my dad and stepmother for help. Now I am doing ok, but the thoughts and feelings are so deep it's difficult to believe or trust in anyone. I've never had someone to lean on, or take care of me.. I have been hoping that therapy would be enough for me to keep pushing forward.. but I recently lost my shadow of 14.5 years. My dog was my rock, he was the only support system I've ever really had. Now it feels like I'm lost.. My nightmares have gotten worse.. They're a curse and a blessing, I get to see and hold him again... however it's in addition to my usual night terrors. Anywho, that's my story in a nutshell. It's ok, to not be ok.
Best,
Căpșună