Well,
In my journey of recovering from my trauma, my research has lead me to this page. I'm excited to read about others recovery and even share a bit of my own.
As I'm pushing the age of " Adulthood," I've started to see a personality arise that I felt deemed as healthy. Was it finally getting away from my abusers? Was it starting to hang out with others who I deemed as healthy or normal? What ever the case may be, I saw and continue seeing sparks of the person I yearn to be. However, the moments of flashbacks due to someone saying something mean, or getting frustrated haunt me takes a toll on me.
Was it my fault? How can I make them happy? I don't deserve to be happy, I should just go lay in bed all day and distract my self from reality.
Those moments in my life I've always assumed it was personality traits I created; however, I have come to realize I didn't create these moments. They are the reactions from my trauma, and it is up to me to realize them and find help to become the person I have always dreamed of being. Normal? Myself?
Thank you for reading.
In my journey of recovering from my trauma, my research has lead me to this page. I'm excited to read about others recovery and even share a bit of my own.
As I'm pushing the age of " Adulthood," I've started to see a personality arise that I felt deemed as healthy. Was it finally getting away from my abusers? Was it starting to hang out with others who I deemed as healthy or normal? What ever the case may be, I saw and continue seeing sparks of the person I yearn to be. However, the moments of flashbacks due to someone saying something mean, or getting frustrated haunt me takes a toll on me.
Was it my fault? How can I make them happy? I don't deserve to be happy, I should just go lay in bed all day and distract my self from reality.
Those moments in my life I've always assumed it was personality traits I created; however, I have come to realize I didn't create these moments. They are the reactions from my trauma, and it is up to me to realize them and find help to become the person I have always dreamed of being. Normal? Myself?
Thank you for reading.