I was directed here from out of the fog 
I'm dead and I have a dad with NPD and as a result of years of abuse I have CPTSD along with a couple of other conditions.
I'll copypaste my post from out of the fog:
Firstly, I'm really glad I found this forum.
So I kind of grew up in a crucible of insanity; my dad was very abusive in multiple ways, which finally culminated with him trying to kill me. My sibling was killed when I was very young and it made my mum absolutely crazy and very difficult to reach. In my early teens I found myself homeless after we got into yet another fight about her extremely fundamental and abusive church. I was sexually assaulted multiple times during this time, but nobody wanted to help because I was running with a bad crowd.
Fast forward and my CPTSD along with bouts of anxiety and depression coupled with psychosis and episodes of cotards' are basically ruining my life. I have a good therapist and I am about to start trauma therapy but I've never felt more adrift. I have a wonderful caring boyfriend and his family have adopted me as their own, but none of it helps. I feel like I'm on a constantly sinking ship, and most days it's all I can do to bail the water out.
I'm hoping this forum will help me come to terms with some of my problems, and provide valuable insights. I also hope to connect with others who share common ground.
I look forward to meeting you all!
I'm dead and I have a dad with NPD and as a result of years of abuse I have CPTSD along with a couple of other conditions.
I'll copypaste my post from out of the fog:
Firstly, I'm really glad I found this forum.
So I kind of grew up in a crucible of insanity; my dad was very abusive in multiple ways, which finally culminated with him trying to kill me. My sibling was killed when I was very young and it made my mum absolutely crazy and very difficult to reach. In my early teens I found myself homeless after we got into yet another fight about her extremely fundamental and abusive church. I was sexually assaulted multiple times during this time, but nobody wanted to help because I was running with a bad crowd.
Fast forward and my CPTSD along with bouts of anxiety and depression coupled with psychosis and episodes of cotards' are basically ruining my life. I have a good therapist and I am about to start trauma therapy but I've never felt more adrift. I have a wonderful caring boyfriend and his family have adopted me as their own, but none of it helps. I feel like I'm on a constantly sinking ship, and most days it's all I can do to bail the water out.
I'm hoping this forum will help me come to terms with some of my problems, and provide valuable insights. I also hope to connect with others who share common ground.
I look forward to meeting you all!