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Thank you very much.

For your own piece of mind by the way, Martin Brody is not my real name. Thank you for your concern, though. It's actually a reference to the main character in Jaws. An apt analogy for me personally, and my cPTSD.

*possible triggers for neglect, and sexual/emotional abuse*

Hello, all. You can call me by my username or by Ire, I'll answer to both.

I'm a female-presenting, genderfluid, adult (pronouns:she/he, I have no preference unless otherwise stated) who only recently put a name to my lifelong illness. It was only after things got so bad I could no longer work or leave the house that I found out.

My parents knew more than "just depression" (as they put it) was going on since I was in single didgets but intentionally kept it from me. I blindly rushed into dangerous situations and patterns as I grew up, and thus additional trauma. They (my parents) continue to not acknowledge any of the instances where I was sexually assaulted, or my mother's emotionally violent narcissism which continues to trigger me, as well as holding our whole family hostage.

I've been a member of a lot of mental illness support forums but never felt anything really clicked with what I was going through like I saw things click for others. I like to listen and offer support as much as I like receiving it, but I must admit I am very isolated and have been thirsting for some validation, acceptance, visbility... for a long time. As I said before, I only recently discovered CPTSD was a thing and that I have it.

I'm eager to get to know you folks, offer support, educate myself, and do my best to work on recovery. Thank you for your time.

likes: cats, animation, Halloween
dislikes: rudeness, willful ignorance, celery