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Thank you for all your replies. Tonight my anxiety is bad. My poor nervous system doesn't know what to do. So many intense emotions and inner turmoil tonight. There's no where to run or hide. I'm tired and trying to hold things together. I feel like I'm going to burst ☹️

Thank you.
I appreciate your time to reply.
Thank you for your validation of my losses. The depth of grief  feels impossible to navigate at times and I feel alone in it.
People and life carry on. I do understand that people don't know what to say or do. because they feel awkward, but that isn't helping me right now. I've always been there for people in their darkest times so I can't fully grasp it.

Hello, I'm nervously reaching out to find a sense of much needed connection.
I've been very self compassionate with all the challenges, and all the complexity of healing from childhood neglect (from infancy). Domestic violence and other traumatic events ( The layers, and layers of unraveling and applying new behaviours and responses. ) .
I have experienced on going traumas most of my life but recently ( last year)  I have experienced, another one whereby my daughter was killed in a motorbike incident. 

So I have experienced such an intense time with loss of friends, lack of support and my 2 youngest children and I, were homeless during this time of tragedy.
The lack of support at a time when I really needed it, added another layer of grief and sadness. I'm struggling with the overlay of emotions.

So to remedy these feelings I moved location, found a new job ( after not working for so long)  and fortunately a place to live. However I'm still emotionally isolating myself. I feel frozen and I know that isolation is an unhealthy long term solution - so I thought I would join this community.
Thanks for listening.