I began to develop C-PTSD in early childhood with a mother who essentially pretended that I didn't exist. She eventually took her own life, which I blamed myself for profusely. An emotionally and verbally abusive step-mother came into the picture less than a year after those events took place, which exacerbated my fawning trauma response. I became very good at becoming pretty invisible as the middle child.
Many times throughout my adolescence, I would nonchalantly comment on something that had taken place at home, to which my friends would literally drop their jaws - and I would just brush it off as being "normal." These events continued even into adulthood and I only recently found a temporary break now that I am married. My husband's family, as well as many close friends, have helped me come to grips with the term "trauma." I am currently researching C-PTSD through a number of helpful books, and also searching for a trauma-based therapist to begin my journey of fixing the narrative in my head.
I look forward to finding support through this group <3 I'm already feeling at home. Thank you!!
Many times throughout my adolescence, I would nonchalantly comment on something that had taken place at home, to which my friends would literally drop their jaws - and I would just brush it off as being "normal." These events continued even into adulthood and I only recently found a temporary break now that I am married. My husband's family, as well as many close friends, have helped me come to grips with the term "trauma." I am currently researching C-PTSD through a number of helpful books, and also searching for a trauma-based therapist to begin my journey of fixing the narrative in my head.
I look forward to finding support through this group <3 I'm already feeling at home. Thank you!!