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Thank you @California Dreaming for saying hello It means so much to feel like I am not in this alone!

Thank you, @Dee, @Three Roses and @Boatsailrose for the words of welcome and for sharing a little about yourselves! Empathy is so rare and precious <3

Thank you, Blueberry

Hi! I'm new to the forum. Recently discovered I am a CPTSD sufferer after being scapegoated my while life by narc mother (and of course the rest of the family). This was all brought back to the surface recently with Narc boss.  I am terrified of everything, people especially, so diagnosed with terrible social anxiety - I;m basically a hermit.  These diagnoses are recent (after years of imprecise diagnoses that didn't quite seem to suffice). At the age of 40, I am dealing with learning that I was abused, trying to learn to grieve, learning to feel anger (which I apparently have a LOT of) and trying to find out who I am. I have felt like a passenger in my own life for all this time.  And I have always felt so alone - I was of course told that it is my fault I am like this (because I am negative, because I am lazy, etc).  I't great to know that there are others like out there.  This is not happening to me because I am fundamentally flawed.  Reminding myself that this is a normal response for someone with my experiences.  Sending love to everyone else who feels the way I do.