Here is my wondering. Coming to this diagnosis of CPTSD has been a journey of about 30 years now - 30 years of therapy, self-help groups, workshops, and an entire library of books.
I will say I have made some huge gains in my ability to be functional. My parenting improved (Thank God!). I hopefully have not passed on the family curse of dysfunction and abuse. I am watching my son and daughter in law raise my 9 month old grandson and am awed at what terrific parents they are.
My ability to provide for myself financially has improved considerably. I have a career that I love, doing work that I find worthy and fulfilling.
I am married to a wonderful man who is supportive and kind.
I am tremendously grateful for these things.
However, my ability to manage friendships, relationships with people I work with, and stress, have deteriorated. My life has become much more narrow and isolated. That is my wondering. Why is this area of my life so much worse than before?
This is affecting my health, and is now beginning to affect my marriage and my workplace.
I will say I have made some huge gains in my ability to be functional. My parenting improved (Thank God!). I hopefully have not passed on the family curse of dysfunction and abuse. I am watching my son and daughter in law raise my 9 month old grandson and am awed at what terrific parents they are.
My ability to provide for myself financially has improved considerably. I have a career that I love, doing work that I find worthy and fulfilling.
I am married to a wonderful man who is supportive and kind.
I am tremendously grateful for these things.
However, my ability to manage friendships, relationships with people I work with, and stress, have deteriorated. My life has become much more narrow and isolated. That is my wondering. Why is this area of my life so much worse than before?
This is affecting my health, and is now beginning to affect my marriage and my workplace.