Hello.
I feel like I was doing so well with my recovery. After a very long time, I was starting to feel better, learning to love myself and learn new things about myself.
I had an incident at work which triggered an EF and since then I can't seem to shake off the feelings. It's like I'm stuck in a hole and I can't get out. Nightmares nearly every night. I don't want to sleep because I don't know if I'll have a night of peace. My night thoughts get to me. I constantly think of all the "what-ifs"....what if i spoke up about the neglect and abuse as a child...who would I be today? Where would I be? It makes me feel lost...
I tried doing a guided meditation to heal your inner child but I started crying so hard it hurt and I had to stop.
It's like I take a step forward and I am happy and I get thrown 10 feet back.
I just want to be okay again.
I feel like I was doing so well with my recovery. After a very long time, I was starting to feel better, learning to love myself and learn new things about myself.
I had an incident at work which triggered an EF and since then I can't seem to shake off the feelings. It's like I'm stuck in a hole and I can't get out. Nightmares nearly every night. I don't want to sleep because I don't know if I'll have a night of peace. My night thoughts get to me. I constantly think of all the "what-ifs"....what if i spoke up about the neglect and abuse as a child...who would I be today? Where would I be? It makes me feel lost...
I tried doing a guided meditation to heal your inner child but I started crying so hard it hurt and I had to stop.
It's like I take a step forward and I am happy and I get thrown 10 feet back.
I just want to be okay again.