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  I am finally at a point of trying to sort out my childhood traumas after getting away from a NPD BF.  To this day, he still tries to manipulate me and blame me for all our problems.  As a child, I was sexually assaulted on many occasions by my brother and another family member.  My dad abandoned me when my mother had an accident and was hospitalized for a year.  After she got out of the hospital; I spent my childhood raising myself.  I am slowly putting pieces of the puzzle together to think that my dad was molesting my brother hence he molested me.  My mother got pregnant with me to spite my dad.  I was always told I wasnt good enough and wouldnt amount to anything.  There are plenty of bits and pieces of memories surfacing and I am trying to learn how to deal with them...what to do with them...
  I am sure its going to be a rough journey, but hopefully will be worth it.