My 17 year old left home early October, my 20 year old left mid November; they both joined the military together. I've been surprisingly good. I've traveled like crazy, but the vacation is over, so to speak. I really miss my kids. I spent my last trip talking about them too much. With every thing I did I thought of them and how they would like it. I really miss them now.
Before they were ever born they were my rock. My dream of my family, they saved me. Anyway, I don't know what I want now. I'm trying to dream, but I can't find the next thing. The only thing I ever really wanted was them; I'm trying to find the "now what."
I'm venting, that's all, and I need that tonight and last night and last week.
My kids are 34 and 31 now, I still crave their company. But we are less like parent-child and more like friends. The relationship has changed but deepened.
This is a time of change for you, and you'll find yourself out on the other side of this with a rich, full life. It's okay to not know what you want! You have time to think and decide. :hug:
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