Hi
Found this test which I would like to share, as I found it useful
Slim
http://bayareadbtcc.com/are-you-emotionally-dysregulated/ (http://bayareadbtcc.com/are-you-emotionally-dysregulated/)
Thanks, Slim--nothing new, but the test reaffirmed how ungodly numb I am and how hidden my emotions are. They seem to be there, but far under the surface. That this can (and has) hinder my relationships is a core problem for me in trying to find a way out. As noted in another thread, I can display tons of empathy for others but none for myself.
Beyond the ever-present numbness, I'm hyper-sensitive/vigilant/anxious to what's going on around me. But as to my own emotional state, I'm scared/freaked out by my own emotions (or lack thereof). It's like I'm carefully watching for the moment I can escape the almost certain rejection of others. I've worked on this with my T, but extreme numbness continues to plague any progress, although my T claims she's seen glimmers of it.