One way of helping yourself if you are beginning to have thoughts of suicide is to visit the site Staying Safe from Suicidal Thoughts. (http://stayingsafe.net/home)
This online help site offers "easy to print / online templates and guidance video tutorials purposefully designed to help people through the process of writing their own Safety Plan to build hope, identify actions and strategies to resist suicidal thoughts and develop positive ways to cope with stress and emotional distress."