After things got ugly over Christmas, my dad came to the realization that if he didn't change then he faced never having a relationship with his only child. Since then, things have been better than they've ever been. With that being said, things aren't perfect, and he's still the man that abused us all these years. Lately he's been nice to me and trying to talk to me and establish some sort of relationship but it's hard. I feel like I'll never truely trust him, not when I know how fast his personality can shift into a monster. I just feel guilty, like I shouldn't be so cold when he talks to me you know? I just don't know how or even if I should bother. :Idunno:
Hi LittleBirdy,
Sounds very familiar. I'm a bit short of time rn so just want to point you to The Abusive Cycle http://outofthefog.website/top-100-trait-blog/2015/10/21/abusive-cycle over on our sister website Out Of The Fog. It could be that that is what is going on.