I just saw a new therapist. My previous therapist had a perception of me and 'knew' what was the cause of my issues, which was entirely false. I went back to her a few months after I stopped seeing her on a regular basis and told her about my panic around my FOO. She told me that it was normal and that all teenagers want to avoid their 'family'. I did not seek the help of another therapist until I had an extreme panic attack...my 'little brother' was the cause.
Besides the point. My mother's teacher's brother is a psychologist and he was recommended to her. I saw him a couple days ago...he is qwerky. His office is very home-y, in that it is a representation of his personality. I was used to going into an office room and be very anxious. I had almost no anxiety when I saw him. It was strange. I have never been in the company of someone who didn't give me extreme anxiety the first time I meet them.
I told him about my panic attacks and he validated them. He understood I have an understanding of my situation and didn't put me into a box of 'gifted' or 'intelligent'. His explanations were very philosophical and he talked very frank about the world and didn't sugar-coat anything.
I didn't have to explain everything. I didn't have to explain how I feel in the classroom or how I feel in society, and when I did have to explain something he didn't try to jump in. I need a minute to formulate my thoughts or find the right words. I am used to the psychiatrist trying to explain it themselves and end the silence, but he allowed me to sit in silence for as long as I needed. He did the same, he sat for a minute formulating his thoughts.
It's strange. It's the first time I have been put in the company of someone like-minded. Someone I share my world with. It's really strange. I can't explain it to anyone around me, because the people I am around do not share my world. I know I can't explain my world to those who aren't a part of it, but I am constantly surrounded by those who are unable to understand. He told me I need to find the society I am a part of...I hate that I am being so held back by my age.
I can't share this insight with anyone around me because they do not belong to my society and do not understand my experience of finally finding someone who is a part of it. It feels so weird to not feel weird around someone. I think that with time, with him, I could actually improve my life.
That's wonderful Dragiow :thumbup: It sounds much the same as how I feel here, I get OOTS members and they me. It's a lovely feeling :yes:
How lovely, Dragiow! Truly a gift. I'm so happy you've found someone you "click" with like that, great news! :cheer:
I'm so happy for you! It sounds like a therapist-client relationship that can be built and that you can learn to trust.