39 on Thursday, suffered emotional, physical, psychological abuse from Mom, Dad, and 3/4 of my Grandparents from 4, when sis was born, until 18 when I left them behind with no life skills. I've had a messed up life. I've never made more than 25k in a year. I have 2 kids from 1st wife I signed over and don't see. I have a long time gf and an 8 yr old daughter. I've been clean from meth for 6 years in May, and I quit smoking over 1.5 years ago.
I discovered cptsd 2 months ago when I typed how I felt into Google. I have a very low self worth, self hating, yada. I found an article by Pete Walker today, then found this board, and now I'm here. Now, to find the search bar . . .
Welcome, Rooter Soho! :wave:
I've never made over 25k either! You're not alone. Sorry that you have been through so many terrible experiences.
I'm glad you are here.
Thanks! Me too. My symptoms have been getting worse? more noticeable to me? I'm not sure how to put it. I almost just think they feel worse, cuz I can't ever remember being okay. To put a name to what's wrong with me and to find out all my symptoms come from my trauma is almost freeing. I'm starting therapy as soon as we move, in a month or 2.
The biggest thing is my lack of motivation - I think about finally catching a break and getting a job and I don't care. (Gf usually makes okay money). She talks to me about it and gets angry, but, whatever.
Hi rooter soho
I can relate to what you say .. quote 'life skills, addiction , self worth '
It's amazing we get out of addiction ! Then can pave the way to further healing . When I put a name to what I experience I experienced a freedom and belonging that was supportive ..
this forum is such a blessing and safe place
I've been off work since Jan and yep motivation is an issue to me ( the meds make me more sluggish)
Fear can hold me back too..
But I am looking forward to regaining my status in society
My symptoms have got worse - or more as I have put my addictions down I gain more clarity over them..
Maybe with age I am more articulate in my internal experiences ?
Glad you found your way to us, Rooter Soho. :hug:
Hi and a warm welcome to you Rooter :heythere:
Thanks for the support guys!!! I'm so glad I've found this site. You'll be seeing me a lot I'm sure.