Greetings from a newbie. So glad to have found my way to this community. My CPTSD started in childhood as daily events. It continued throughout my life in the relationships and friendships I chose. I felt afraid of myself and that there was something terribly wrong with me. If I could just act right and be a helper to everyone else and be perfect maybe I would be okay.
Now at the ripe Young age of 70 I realize how codependent I am and how I am not to blame and I did nothing wrong other than to ignore myself and my own needs.. I am a victim of narcissistic personality disordered parents and the relationships that followed.
Today I have a thriving membership in my local CODA group, intensively working through the steps with a wonderful and wise sponsor. I have removed myself from the dysfunctional relationships that have caused me a lifetime of pain. I feel like I have come home and begun a whole new life! Maybe we can share our journeys and grow together. I look forward to it.
Hello and welcome to you, Unfoldinggrace! Thanks for joining :hug:
Hi and a very warm welcome to OOTS Grace :heythere: There are a lot of us in the senior or the "It's never too late to recover" category ;D I also grew up in a personality disordered family although I didn't realize it until my 50's. I went LC/NC about three years ago, best thing I ever did. It wasn't really a choice I made as it was either break contact or go under. Now I am not being constantly triggered so have had the time and energy to work on recovery.
I went to ACoA for a while in my twenties but hadn't heard of CODA before. It stands for Codependents Anonymous - correct?