After reading about CPTSD and its symptoms, i could really relate. I realised i have suffered hypervigilance since my late teens. I am now 51.
I read it was something to do with narcissism, but the hypervigilance seems nearer to the mark or are they related ?
My T thinks ive done it all my life, i dont know.
I just became aware of it when i was being bullied at school and home . The constant need to check whether someones looking at you or not, in the classroom, in the street, in the office, all the bloody time.
I think i had a ubpd mother and ive read that their children can develop a fear of attack and hypervigilance seems to be a defense mechanism?
If i went anywhere regularly i would have to develop a paranoia about someone, i convinced myself they didnt like me
My T said i should try and resist the urge, but it makes me feel anxious.
Does anyone else suffer this?
Hi yes im the same. I get paranoid too. Im always thinking folk dont like me and always try reading their faces for clues etc. Didnt realise i was doing it till i came here. I too think i have a uUPDm.
Yep, I have that tendency too Hazy111. It can definitely be exhausting at times.