Out of the Storm

CPTSD and Others => Our Relationships with Others => General Discussion => Topic started by: Dee on July 14, 2016, 03:53:19 AM

Title: Think I have stopped running
Post by: Dee on July 14, 2016, 03:53:19 AM

I have a bad habit about leaving places and never keeping in contact with anyone.  Most of all, I had a teacher that helped me when I left home and my dad went to prison when I was 17.  I left at 18, joined the army and never maintained any contact.  She was a reminder of a horrible time in my life.  She would email me every year on my birthday and every year I deleted it without a reply.  Sometimes I read it, other times I didn't even do that.  I tried so hard to bury the past.  Since I left home I have lived in 13 different places.  I leave and I never look back.

This evening I emailed her and thanked her for all she did for me.  She put a roof over my head when I had no family.  I apologized for not being more appreciative and not keeping contact with her.  I hope she can come to understand.  And a weird thing happened....I cried.  Maybe I can feel after all.  Therapy is making me soft : )
Title: Re: Think I have stopped running
Post by: Three Roses on July 14, 2016, 04:13:07 AM
Hmm... is therapy making you soft, or is it giving you back your missing feelings?  ;)

Good work!
Title: Re: Think I have stopped running
Post by: Contessa on July 14, 2016, 09:45:23 AM
Soft? Or relaxed?
Sounds like things are looking up ;)