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I'm so sorry.
I just wrote a whole lot of words and deleted them.
Maybe now is not the time for hope and faith, but just for enduring the here and now until they return. That hollowed-out misery, the void - I know it well, but had forgotten that place until I read your message. Yet I've been there many times. When I'm there, where I am now is somewhere I can only dimly remember.
I wish I had words that could bring you comfort now, but all I can say is that you will be able to feel comfort again in the future. Hold on until then.