Dear All
Like you I have CPTSD. I have only just been diagnosed with it, so it feels like I am under an avalanche of information.
Nevertheless, I am reading about the disorder. I have stopped drinking, so my emotional dysregulation is going at full tilt.
I am also realising how terrible my childhood was, how I don't even trust myself,
I have come to see that I am quite damaged.
On a positive note, I am compliant with my Fluoxetine 60mg /day, see a psychiatrist, see a psychotherapist, try to meditate, and go to AA.
Just about holding in there.
Love and compassion to you all.
Love and compassion to you as well, dear Sigiriuk.
Keep on holding on.
We'll get there. :hug:
Welcome, sigiriuk! :wave:
Congratulations on your sobriety! I hope you will find this site useful in learning about C-PTSD.
Love and compassion to you. :)
Thx for the warm welcome guys
Hello...and while I would like to say congrats on your diagnosis I fear you may take it the wrong way. But your story sounds a little like mine. I was diagnosed about 3yrs ago, finally, after 25yrs of being labeled an alcoholic. I had many periods of sobriety, 1yr here, 2yrs there. Periods of social drinking. Then lots of heavy drinking. But when I was sober my brain was crazy, things did most certainly not feel better. I finally put myself in the hospital with a suicide attempt and demanded someone find out what was wrong with me and do not tell me again that I am an alcoholic or next time I won't call 911. And with that...I finally got someone to listen to me. Actually hear what was going on beyond the drinking.
My diagnosis saved my life. Started me on a path of healing and realization of things that I had pushed very far away. I have discovered that I really never stood a chance to turn out any different , and as a matter of fact, I really could have turned out a lot worse. I found 2 therapists that I trusts completely, which is huge, because we trust no one. And I take my meds. And like you, I no longer drink, but because I no longer need to. My head is so much more quiet. Still pretty chatty, but no more squirrel on the wheel 24hrs a day.
So when I say congratulations on your diagnosis, I really mean it. Hopefully this is the beginning of a new life for you as well.
Peace.