had a nice day singing today.
That sounds so scary, crushed. :(
I'm sorry you are experiencing these terrible loops. Not sure what else to say, but I'm here listening. :hug:
So sorry you are going through this Crushed :hug: I know you are seeing a cranio sacro T soon, but perhaps it might be an idea to see your physician as well and let him/her know you are having difficulties?
There is a new group here at OOTS that is just about to start up and it will relate to working through with dissociation. See the "Book Club" (http://outofthefog.net/C-PTSD/forum/index.php?board=191.0). If you're up to it, the book is called "Coping with Trauma-related Dissociation." (https://books.google.ca/books?hl=en&lr=&id=raGhAQAAQBAJ&oi=fnd&pg=PR11&dq=Trauma-Related+Dissociation+exercises&ots=RAfXBVbAp6&sig=fIC8p9gDCH21AJstvTNcbp2vNTs#v=onepage&q=Trauma-Related%20Dissociation%20exercises&f=false)