Hello,
I'm new here and new to sharing on forums in general. I have been reading some of the posts and am feeling quite emotional. I've known that I have CPTSD cognitively for years now, but I am only coming to terms with it emotionally and somatically in the last year.
Last year was very intense for me after receiving a late diagnosis of Audhd at the age of 32 while I was travelling around India for a year. I am working through the denial and relief, loss and joy diagnosis brings. Recently, I did safeguarding training for a youth mentoring role, and it triggered a trauma response, which has taken me 70 days to reach a firm footing in myself again. I have been having anxious, scary thoughts that originate from transferred shame from childhood abuse and neglect. Also, I think from repressed body memories.
For months, my identity has been clouded. It feels like the fog that surrounded me growing up. The kind that has kept me in transactional friendships, that I took for real and meaningful. I wish to break from these cycles. I'm here to find meaningful connections, to express myself authentically, and to learn to live with CPTSD and feel what reciprocity is like.
Thanks to therapy, art, music, poetry, nature, and animals, I feel stronger.
It has taken a long time to build up the strength to find this place and share something. It means a lot to me to be here.
I'm glad you found us, and that you have had the courage to make your first post. I know how tough that is, so very well done.
Hi and a warm welcome to Out of the Storm BlueJayWay :heythere: And well done you for the recovery work you've been doing! I hope being here will help you get further along. :hug: