I've been through it. I've learned i need to let go of toxicity. no more ranting and raving instead of getting better. no more finding enablers to justify this. I'm broken and I'm going to put myself back together. but i shouldn't do it alone. I'm here for support not commiseration save your sympathy.
Welcome to the forum! It's a good supportive place. I think we do more empathy here than sympathy.
Welcome. I'm glad you are seeking support rather than trying to go it totally alone. I am confident you will find support here.