From my first memory in which I disassociated from extreme trauma circa 1 1/2 years old of age my childhood was riddled I with overexposure.
I was subjected to sexual abuse, mental torture, physical torturer, neglect, substance abuse, sexualization, disassociation, hyperactivity, sadomasochistic malignant narcissistic abuse and everything that comes with it...
My swiss hole memory of a childhood was devoid of innocence, security, stability defined by profound sadness, disappointment and disbelief.
But I was born gifted and that has made all the difference...
Hello and welcome to OOTS VB1921:). I am so sorry to hear about all of the abuse you suffered. I very much hope being here will help you to feel connected, heard and supported on your path to recovery.
Welcome VB, sorry to hear you've experienced so much pain and hurt. I hope you're able to find some comfort and solace here.
Regards,
Aphotic.
Welcome here VB1921:) :heythere: I'm sorry for the horrific experiences you had, starting from such an early age. :hug:
Welcome VB :heythere:
Welcome VB,
I like your last line, ..."But I was born gifted and that has made all the difference..."
It's great that you can see the giftedness you were born with and that it has made a difference for you.
I hope the forum, and all other things you are doing, are helpful as you navigate this world as a gifted, yet traumatized soul.
Welcome to the forum.
Hello Papa Coco. It never ceases to horrify my at just how cruel adults can be to their children. I'm so sorry you went through this.
I also relate to your comment "But I was born gifted and that has made all the difference...". I also truely feel that, in the hardenst times, the ability I had to see beauty in the world and the pleasure and meaning I derived from creating, gave me a purpose that continues to this day. My mother regularly made her contempt for creative careers very obvious, but I knew that it was something she could never take away from me. I am now more aware of how her comments were a rejection of my very essence.
I hope that you can find strength and acceptance here.