Dear K,
I have been feeling incredibly hurt by the distance between us.
I used to feel safe and comfortable to reach out. I don't anymore. The last time I reached out you expressed a need for space. I gave it.
I am hurt by the ways you have of late expressed what I perceive to be toxic positivity. It bugs me and leaves me feeling unsettled.
As I thought about our relationship, I wondered if perhaps I took more than I gave. Or maybe that is a story I am telling myself. I think we both reached out when needed and now we don't.
I could try to reach out and express my wish for us to reconnect. But I am hesitant to do so. I don't want to be rejected. It seems like you are going through a lot and I am not a friend you need as much anymore.
This hurts because it has happened to me time and time again. I moved a lot growing up and felt people slip away time and time again. On top of my parents being abusive, I lost people I needed time and time again for my dad's job.
Perhaps we have served the purpose we were meant to for each other. I am sad that is over. I think in the future if I was really in a bind you might lend a listening ear....but for now I am grieving.