When you wreak havoc in my life by getting angry, lashing out and getting drunk and disorderly, I know you are trying to get my (or maybe someone else's?) attention, but it is really messing things up. I get us out of one hole and you dig another one. I am not sure how we can keep doing this rebel rebel act. What can I do to make you feel better or safe? Please tell me. Is it just anger hiding your fear and pain? I wish I could help you. Living in a 48 year-old body/mind and then acting out like a 15 year-old angry brat going to ruin us. I feel at a loss of what to do make you feel better and stop sabotaging things. Please help me, help you. :hug: