Out of the Storm

Development of CPTSD in Childhood => Causes => General Discussion => Topic started by: Not Alone on August 07, 2019, 09:36:37 PM

Title: Because of You
Post by: Not Alone on August 07, 2019, 09:36:37 PM
I listened to this song about ten times today. It could have been written by me about my mother. Cried some, which is a relief. I don't cry easily. (I made some lyrics bold print.)

Because of you
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known
Better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
Because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Kelly Brianne Clarkson / Ben Moody / David Hall Hodges
Because of you lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Reservoir Media Management Inc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hCkOlbL_WVs&list=RDMMhCkOlbL_WVs&start_radio=1
Title: Re: Because of You
Post by: Tee on August 07, 2019, 10:05:57 PM
Yeah this song hit me that way a while back. :hug:
Title: Re: Because of You
Post by: Jazzy on August 07, 2019, 11:44:28 PM
Those lyrics really hit home. Thanks for sharing. I'm glad you got some relief.  Take care! :)