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Hey all, I'm a newbie.  33, narc parent(s).  Days off are uncomfortable for me.  In the past, I would look forward to the weekend!  I always liked the interaction from working in kitchens, but now I work in a shop where I'm by myself most of the day, and live alone, friends are fewer and far between, don't have a hobby anymore (dream of being a cartoonist died), I've been single 9 years.  It's getting harder to be alone, I just smother my cat and chain watch movies and TV (oh, and drink and smoke weed and too many cigarettes).  I used to love alone time...  I guess I still do, fits my personality, but now I crave people, specifically a relationship.  But, I crave that first relationship, that being completely open with another.  Will it ever happen again?  I feel like I fixed myself for a couple years there, and a decade later, I'm way worse and regressed.  Eee, jeff ps, I love my cat.