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I was spearated from my mother at 18 months, I did a hallucinagenic medicine that showed me waking up in the morning and she was gone.
I was stuck standing in the corner of my crib looking at the open door of my bed room. It sucks, never having a proper opportunity to separated an form my inner strength separate from her. But I beleive I can do it now. Im 33.

I started reading Pete Walker about 3  weeks ago, Finally something that describes my experience to a tee. I have been on a long journey through my early 20s not knowing what was going on and how to fix it, I forgot and numbed out my childhood and didnt realized how damaging it was.
Mother left at 18months, came back at 6yo, left again after divorce at 10yo, shes narcissist and very emotionally secrewed up. Had verbally abuseing and emotionally shaming grandmother to replace my mother.

I got addicted to porn early  at age 13, i am now 33,I started reading Pete Walker about 3  weeks ago, Finally something that describes my experience to a tee. I have been on a long journey through my early 20s not knowing what was going on and how to fix it, I forgot and numbed out my  memory childhood and didnt realized how damaging it was.

I have bad scoial anxiety and i dont wanna be so disconnected from love and connection.
Lets beat this thing together.