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I have been having therapy every week for the last 20weeks. My therapy will soon be coming to an end which is scaring me. The flashbacks and nightmares I have about the sexual abuse as a child and rape in later life still haunts me. I wake in a panic, sweating, crying. Sometimes I see shadows in my room and feel my uncle is there. Sometimes I wake feeling that one of them is on top of me. I thought they would have started getting easier or less intense but it seems to be getting harder and harder. I hate this. I don't have the support of family and have no close friends. Feeling so alone

Thank you to you both. I feel like I'm facing a never ending battle that I can't win. I really want to be able to put this behind me and focus on my future but the triggers don't seem to let me do that. It would be great if we all had a switch so that we can turn off the memories

I am new to this forum. A little about myself. I was sexually abused from the age of 10 - 15 by my uncle. I was also subjected to rape at knife point in 2000. The nightmares and flashbacks are so intense and cause great distress. I am constantly jumpy and always avoid busy places as well as going out after dark as I don't feel safe

Both my uncle and the guy who raped me told me I deserved it and I still feel that way now. I constantly put myself down and feel like a failure. I do not have any support other than my therapist who I see weekly.

My family don't believe me about either the abuse or the rape which has also been tough. My friends, the ones who haven't run away just think I should be over it by now. I really wish I was. I'm beginning to think I will never get through this. It happened along time ago but I have only recently started dealing with it. My therapist has diagnosed C-PTSD. Really struggling with facing all this alone