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So glad I found this thread!  Have any of you played Cards against Humanity?  I think everyone was shocked by what i thought was funny!

I found out i was scared of heights while i was 165ft up...did the charity absail but will never do it again!! 

Hi!  Not sure if this is the place to put this but i know it'll be moved if i've got it wrong!

Over xmas and new year my partner and i visited his family.  as we usually do.  This time my neice (8yr old) and i decided to be pen pals!! We live about 250 miles apart.  I got my first letter yesterday and i am really excited to write back!!  Do you have a pen pal? 

My T was trying to work out where a feeling of shame was coming from and i had this new thing (although i have had it before but never in a therapy setting).  As my anxiety got higher it was like the room was changing in size and shape.  i said out loud the the walls were closing in, but it felt more like the whole shape of the room was changing.

The only other time i know/remember this happening was when i was at the vet getting our lovely cat pts. 

Any thoughts much appreciated 

oh wow, the first frame on the first one and all of the second one.  I'm going to try and draw them for my partner and T!

Thanks for sharing these!

Thank you so much Resca.  I for one needed to hear that today xx

Thank you so much. I still find it hard to accept when progress is made. x

Thank you everyone for sharing, means a lot x

Thanks for the replies, i wasn't actually expecting any more! feeling a bit overwhelmed today. got in laws staying for the next 3 nights.  On edge and dealing with therapy seems pretty full on for my nerves already!

Your therapist is right!  You are doing amazing work!!

I hear you Blueberry!  It's a shame we are still ashamed, or needing to be worried about someones reaction to us buying a book!

This is really hard and upsetting work. But i feel a small shift in the confidence I have for my T. I've said much more than i even knew i remembered. 

Found out there is such a thing as body memories or somatic flashbacks. I am starting to feel like the picture is clearing up but it leaves a terrifying truth behind it.  I have disconnected from my self by spacing out for almost 30 years. This is where it started and the picture is becoming clearer.

I've recently gotten this book.  It was in a second hand bookshop when we were on holiday. I was too embarrassed to buy it but showed it to my partner and he paid for it while I left the shop.

Not really had the chance to look at it yet, just flicked through.  It seems to cover alot of stuff.

Thank you all for your replies.  I am so sorry you feel this way as well.  It's overwhelming for sure.

I wish more people could understand how easy it is to have been primed for abuse at a young age.  I don't want them to have to go through it, just realise that it doesn't just have to happen once.

Thanks Blueberry,

Here is a link that kind of describes it
https://www.ptsd.va.gov/public/treatment/therapy-med/prolonged-exposure-therapy.asp

I'm going to be asked to talk about my worst memory repetedly until it is processed.  Alongside this i am working on doing things that remind me of trauma. So i had to put together a list and i start by doing the one that is easiest, so for me having my hair played with or pulled.

It feels pretty horrible to imagine having to say this stuff out loud.  I will also be asked to listen to a recording of the session in my own time.

I like your Screen processing way better!