Hi, I was recently diagnosed...

[AnnaE]

which is not a surprise to me, given that my kids have the same Dx and have all been in treatment for a while.

For me, the trauma situation was an increasingly abusive marriage that lasted two decades. I'm out of it and functioning, but a month ago had a whopper of a flashback that I haven't been able to recover from. I'm still learning the proper terminology, still learning about C-PTSD, and I'm hoping to find a community here that has knowledge and information and that can also make me feel like "I may be odd but these people get me."

Because that's the hardest part for me right now. Feeling so alone in how I can't seem to integrate my rational functioning going to work 40 hours a week and taking care of the family part and my emotional train wreck falling apart being totally irrational scared of everything part.

I am remarried to an amazing man, but right now, he doesn't get me. At. All. We've been friends for forever, he knows me inside and out, but right now, he doesn't understand me and steps in it and hurts me without meaning to on a daily basis. And that's scaring me. Maybe more than anything else. Because he's a keeper, this one, and I don't want to scare him away.

[AnnaE]

And of course, the official Dx is NOT C-PTSD but just PTSD. But you got that.

[mourningdove]

Hi AnnaE! 

I hope you find useful resources and community here. Welcome! 

[Kizzie]

Hi and a warm welcome Anna     If you think you have CPTSD you may want to take this article (http://journals.co-action.net/index.php/ejpt/article/view/25097) to your T and/or GP as there are three additional symptoms that require treatment (See here - http://www.outofthestorm.website/symptoms/)

Also, in general treatment is somewhat different because CPTSD involves an accumulation of trauma (and thus the additional symptoms) which is most often interpersonal in nature (versus single incidental trauma like being in a car accident or natural disaster). As such, it's important to be diagnosed and treated effectively. 

There's lots of info here http://www.giftfromwithin.org/html/cptsd-understanding-treatment.html that your H may find helpful in understanding what you and the children are going through at the moment (and by extension him as well).  Perhaps family therapy with a trauma informed professional might be useful in helping him to understand you and the children better?

We do all get it here, so glad you found your way to OOTS.  Hopefully you'll find the information and support you're looking for.