You sound remarkably strong and aware. I am sorry for what you went through. It is extremely common...nearly 100%...of people who post on this forum believe they are not worthy to post here or what happened wasn't bad enough. It's never ever true. So just welcome to you. You'll find community here and support and empathy. Honestly receiving empathy and validation from the people on this forum who have been through so much has been more healing than anything.
Take your time posting in a way that is comfortable and healing to you. And welcome we're glad you are here.
Take your time posting in a way that is comfortable and healing to you. And welcome we're glad you are here.