I get so angry at times and turn it inward, my adrenaline makes me feel like I'm having a heart attack. i'm still with someone who is flattening me like a pancake mentally, and i only stay because he works and i cannot. Also, there is always the threat that he will call the police on me for the slightest thing... he knows all the officers and charms them, whereas i cannot. So i desperately try to not raise my voice or God forbid, throw something.
You are very strong for going for a solution and working steadily. For me this came on so insidiously and slowly that ten years went by till i realized I couldn't work and was abusing just about everything from food to cold pills. I don't blame anyone but myself for any of this. I am ashamed that i can't/won't work. I worked for almost 30 years but the last six, my moods are so erratic that i wouldn't be able to make it thru one day. I couldn't even get thru an interview. *, I can barely get thru taking a shower and putting my makeup on.
Stat strong...
You are very strong for going for a solution and working steadily. For me this came on so insidiously and slowly that ten years went by till i realized I couldn't work and was abusing just about everything from food to cold pills. I don't blame anyone but myself for any of this. I am ashamed that i can't/won't work. I worked for almost 30 years but the last six, my moods are so erratic that i wouldn't be able to make it thru one day. I couldn't even get thru an interview. *, I can barely get thru taking a shower and putting my makeup on.
Stat strong...