I can def relate to this. I recently read a book by Pete Walker called The Tao of Full Feeling and realized that was a part of my healing process that was causing me to still be stuck with the past.
Victims of abuse usually learn early on to hold their emotion for survival reasons. By the time they reach adulthood, these repressive behaviors become so automatic. This very true for my case. I cannot force myself to cry and when i do it would be brief and in an outburst. I would write journal about abusive past that if someone else have written it I would be compelled to cry and soothe but I can't do it for myself. Still a working progress...
Victims of abuse usually learn early on to hold their emotion for survival reasons. By the time they reach adulthood, these repressive behaviors become so automatic. This very true for my case. I cannot force myself to cry and when i do it would be brief and in an outburst. I would write journal about abusive past that if someone else have written it I would be compelled to cry and soothe but I can't do it for myself. Still a working progress...