Thanks for posting hurtbeat. I suffer from this too. WHO KNEW?? How can one diagnosis their own trauma? I've been medicated since my 30s with anti-depressants and mood stabilizers, been diagnosed with BiPolar I (or II can't remember which one is "less") and none of my therapists after ALL THESE YEARS (and I'm talking like 30 years) thought I could be suffering from anything else other than imbalanced brain chemistry.
I used to heavily medicate myself with alcohol for 35 years so that masked my feelings/emotions, I'd reach for the bottle every time I felt the disassociation, depersonalisation, emotional flashback, but I haven't had a drink in almost 6 years so now have to work through the emotions and usually I just go to bed and sleep.
I totally get it hurtbeat! I hate it!! I have to fight the desire to flee at work when I get triggered. I'm still trying to figure it all out, and know it's going to be awhile before I fully understand. I'm even thinking of switching therapists to someone who is knowledgeable on c-pstd (my current therapist had never heard of it!)
Wishing you the best with your search for a good psychologist and thanks for sharing. I love how we can support each other here.
I used to heavily medicate myself with alcohol for 35 years so that masked my feelings/emotions, I'd reach for the bottle every time I felt the disassociation, depersonalisation, emotional flashback, but I haven't had a drink in almost 6 years so now have to work through the emotions and usually I just go to bed and sleep.
I totally get it hurtbeat! I hate it!! I have to fight the desire to flee at work when I get triggered. I'm still trying to figure it all out, and know it's going to be awhile before I fully understand. I'm even thinking of switching therapists to someone who is knowledgeable on c-pstd (my current therapist had never heard of it!)
Wishing you the best with your search for a good psychologist and thanks for sharing. I love how we can support each other here.