I can't seem to reply to individual messages, so I hope I'm right in doing it this way.
Thank you all for your comments and welcome. It's certainly been very helpful to hear about other people's EFs, and I really identify with them feeling like my normal. 'normal' is something I've always really struggled with - what is my normal, what is my personality and what is my C-PTSD, and does it matter? I'm obsessed with what people think of me but I hate being praised, I never believe it and it doesn't feel safe. Thoughts about 'is this an EF?' tend to lead to a lot of overthinking which extends the EF.
I'm really muddling through my self at the moment, trying to be kind to my self but also not give up and withdraw from the world, to give myself motivational talks but also down time, and the constant balance between hibernating away from the world and making myself do the typical things that are recommended for depression - seeing friends, exercising etc.
I'd like to get more into the forums as they are such a rich resource. Does anyone have a rec for the best place to start?!
Thank you all for your comments and welcome. It's certainly been very helpful to hear about other people's EFs, and I really identify with them feeling like my normal. 'normal' is something I've always really struggled with - what is my normal, what is my personality and what is my C-PTSD, and does it matter? I'm obsessed with what people think of me but I hate being praised, I never believe it and it doesn't feel safe. Thoughts about 'is this an EF?' tend to lead to a lot of overthinking which extends the EF.
I'm really muddling through my self at the moment, trying to be kind to my self but also not give up and withdraw from the world, to give myself motivational talks but also down time, and the constant balance between hibernating away from the world and making myself do the typical things that are recommended for depression - seeing friends, exercising etc.
I'd like to get more into the forums as they are such a rich resource. Does anyone have a rec for the best place to start?!