Not Alone: 2022

[Bach]

 

[Not Alone]

I am trying to take life step by step. I've been working on resume and application, which is a very involved process. I am making progress. Needing to get a new job causes me a LOT of anxiety. Trying to do one part at a time.



This morning I worked on essay application questions. I feel good that I got the questions done. I still need to tweak my answers and have some people look it over, but it was a step. Trying not to go to. . . I also need to ______ and __________ and ________. . .

Great news!!! I was offered the job that I've been working toward and hoping for. It will be a different position where I currently work. I won't have the added stress of learning a new place and new people. It's also a supportive, non-toxic environment. My prayer has been answered. I'm so glad and grateful. I didn't even interview for the job, my supervisor just offered it to me. I will start the new job in July.

            

[Armee]

 

I'm so happy for you!!!!! And it has sounded like an amazing work environment too. You deserved this to go right. And it did even easier than imagined. 

[Blueberry]

Wonderful, notalone! That must be one load off your mind. So happy for you

[sanmagic7]

you brought a big smile to my face after reading about this, notalone!  so very very glad for you!

step by step - way to go!  love and hugsd

[Not Alone]

Thank you, Armee, Blueberry, San, and all.

[Bach]

Congratulations, Not Alone! What a great time for good news 

[Not Alone]

Thank you, Bach.

More good news: I will need furniture for when my H and I divorce and live in separate places. I found and bought a used bedroom set for not too much money.

[Armee]

 



I know there is stress and sadness and grief and anger but also....having your very own space will be so nice too.

[paul72]

Congratulations Not Alone.. that's wonderful news about the job .. and the furniture too.
Wishing these events turn into an avalanche of goodness coming your way. 

[Blueberry]

Congrats on finding furniture! Step by step - imo big steps - you're on your way to reclaiming your life without your h.

[Not Alone]

Thank you Armee, Phil and Blueberry.


My doctor of 20 years left the practice. I saw someone new today. I needed refills on my headache meds and on xanax. She wanted me to see a neurologist and a psychiatrist. She also wanted some tests done. When I said no, she asked why. I told her it was triggering to me. She said, "It's only. . ." I'm not willing to jump through her hoops and she isn't willing to see me as a patient. She gave me a prescription for 10 xanax. I'm was distressed from what happened that I needed to take a xanax.

I made an appointment with a different doctor from my original doctor's practice, in 4 weeks. I hope I don't go through the same thing again.

I talked to someone from the insurance company to make sure the next visit would be covered. I was telling her what happened. She was encouraging. I appreciated that.

[rainydiary]

I hope that you find a supportive provider- it is so difficult to have to find someone new.

[Not Alone]

Thank you, RainyDiary.

I continue to be triggered by the doctor. I went to the pharmacy to fill the prescription for the few xanax and the headache meds that she was willing to prescribe to me. I found out that she had prescribed a totally different headache medicine, that was not covered by insurance and she never even told me.  I did not get the headache meds.

[Bach]

Oh, Not Alone, I'm so sorry to hear about those bad experiences with the doctor.  I have had many experiences with doctors who would not accept my input about my own care and refused treat me unless I did exactly as they said no matter how many valid reasons I had for asking for something different.  I have also dealt with the prescribing without warning of shockingly pricey meds that I ended up having to do without.  I have a very difficult time trusting doctors and I know what a nightmare getting care can be.  I hope this next doctor is someone you can comfortably work with and be cared for by.