I'm not sure where to start...
I am 33 years old and haven't been able to heal from my SA and emotional abuse from age 6-15yo.
It was a parent. I told my other parent finally about what was going on and a divorce was filed immediately.
To this day, my family members will not acknowledge what I went through. Immediately after everything unraveled, the struggle my other parent and I went through for years following the divorce, or to this day. Sweeping things under the rug is how my family deals with things. I have a sister who I am extremely close to, however, she still has contact with the parent who did this to me. I find myself being distant and putting up a wall now. The wall with my other family members is about ten feet tall to protect myself. I moved across the country about five years ago, I have a loving husband and two beautiful stepchildren. I have tried CBT, medications, yoga, exercise, breathing techniques, many years of therapy. Writing, reading, research. I feel stuck and exhausted trying to help myself get through this. Maybe this forum will help? Getting it out there in the world so I don't feel so alone in it?
I am 33 years old and haven't been able to heal from my SA and emotional abuse from age 6-15yo.
It was a parent. I told my other parent finally about what was going on and a divorce was filed immediately.
To this day, my family members will not acknowledge what I went through. Immediately after everything unraveled, the struggle my other parent and I went through for years following the divorce, or to this day. Sweeping things under the rug is how my family deals with things. I have a sister who I am extremely close to, however, she still has contact with the parent who did this to me. I find myself being distant and putting up a wall now. The wall with my other family members is about ten feet tall to protect myself. I moved across the country about five years ago, I have a loving husband and two beautiful stepchildren. I have tried CBT, medications, yoga, exercise, breathing techniques, many years of therapy. Writing, reading, research. I feel stuck and exhausted trying to help myself get through this. Maybe this forum will help? Getting it out there in the world so I don't feel so alone in it?