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I there a forum for supporters? Do you think is best for him if I leave don't know how I went from being is support to his enemy... without warning..
I was the person that knows him best. His sister keeps telling to get over it. I told her not to do that.
I also feel betrayed , like I had been living a lie. I know it is not true..but I get really emotional (also I discover that he has grown up son that he forgot to tell me in 20 years, nobody knows about the son, and he doesn't know that I know. I would like to confront him , but it not the right time).
He is in denial and want to cut everybody out of his life at this moment.

My partner of 20 years has suffered child abuse, he suffers many of the physical signs, back pain, allergy, gastrointestinal ....for many years he was nice and supportive with me  , but always had a conflicted relationship with his family. He hated his father but at the same time wanted his approval. Weekly phone calls  always ended up with a fight especially with the father the perpetrator. Mother was also a victim but never left or protected her children.

4 year ago the father stopped visiting because he gave to my partner  an ultimatum, asking that my partner reconnected with his older sibling. Last year my partner had another fight with his parents and went no contact.   However, one of his siblings called him and accused him to be mean and selfish because the parents are old now and probably dying soon. Then my partner became more and more isolated, didn't want to most of our friends, and I pressure a little bit inviting people for dinner at our house. Then I went away for several days to visit my family and he went to see the only relative that he loves because is very sick.

When I came back home from my visit he started yelling at me that I was selfish, a liar and should get out of our house. I have not being able to discuss anything with him, every time I approach him he is telling me that I am selfish and crazy ...like is parents, (recently he burned all the letters from his parents) he also called me crazy because I stayed calm and  did not start fighting with him.

I don't know what to do, I don't understand why I am the trigger now, I was never abusive toward him.
He actually called me stupid for staying with him so many years. He is in survival mode goes to work, emptied the freezer and fridge, keeps only few essentials in the fridge. Sometimes I am worrying for his safety.

Any suggestions ?