I know I don't post here much... or at all anymore.
I'm struggling with something at the moment... well all week really.
I've had the same flashback 4 times this week... it's "missing a piece" The piece it is missing is what I said right before the physical abuse. I said something... or answered a question... or something to set her off.
Immediately after I said it I was yanked to my feet to be punished.
What if I deserved it? I always hear people say that everything happens for a reason. What if I'm to blame? Maybe I did deserve it. That was the constant message I was told. I let it happen, over and over again.
If everything happens for a reason... why did so much PA happen to me? I'm afraid the answer is because I deserved it. I brought it on myself.
I'm struggling with something at the moment... well all week really.
I've had the same flashback 4 times this week... it's "missing a piece" The piece it is missing is what I said right before the physical abuse. I said something... or answered a question... or something to set her off.
Immediately after I said it I was yanked to my feet to be punished.
What if I deserved it? I always hear people say that everything happens for a reason. What if I'm to blame? Maybe I did deserve it. That was the constant message I was told. I let it happen, over and over again.
If everything happens for a reason... why did so much PA happen to me? I'm afraid the answer is because I deserved it. I brought it on myself.