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#17
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Hello
September 17, 2019, 07:26:58 PM
Hello, I'm new to the forums (of course).
Recently I've discovered I very likely have CPTSD. My therapist sort of confirmed it, by saying she agrees, but doesn't want to use labels, so... that's sort of a diagnosis? I find it difficult to say I have it, both from self doubt (worried I'm making it up to get out of blame) and from worrying that to accept it means I have an inescapable condition or have to view myself as a victim. So for now I'll just say I have a lot of symptoms that match up with it, that I'm looking for support for from this forum.
I'll keep my background brief, and say that I have a history of being treated poorly in childhood, struggling with depression and anxiety "coincidentally" starting and worsening in parallel to that, and finally, recently, a long-term relationship that went sideways and led to me discovering CPTSD. The concept that my childhood was abusive is new, as I had always believed that unless physical violence was present everything was fine, and that I was just doing things that resulted in the behavior, so I still hesitate to call it that. Same goes for my relationship.
So far I've lurked a bit, and have seen some similarities in experiences. My biggest concern first is that what happened in my past isn't "bad enough" for me to be here.
Recently I've discovered I very likely have CPTSD. My therapist sort of confirmed it, by saying she agrees, but doesn't want to use labels, so... that's sort of a diagnosis? I find it difficult to say I have it, both from self doubt (worried I'm making it up to get out of blame) and from worrying that to accept it means I have an inescapable condition or have to view myself as a victim. So for now I'll just say I have a lot of symptoms that match up with it, that I'm looking for support for from this forum.
I'll keep my background brief, and say that I have a history of being treated poorly in childhood, struggling with depression and anxiety "coincidentally" starting and worsening in parallel to that, and finally, recently, a long-term relationship that went sideways and led to me discovering CPTSD. The concept that my childhood was abusive is new, as I had always believed that unless physical violence was present everything was fine, and that I was just doing things that resulted in the behavior, so I still hesitate to call it that. Same goes for my relationship.
So far I've lurked a bit, and have seen some similarities in experiences. My biggest concern first is that what happened in my past isn't "bad enough" for me to be here.
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