Welcome Nea! Who diagnosed you? Is that person a therapist who could treat you? I know it is overwhelming and scary to think there is something wrong with your brain, but over time you may begin to see it as a friend as I currently do. It is a friend that warns me when I am a bad situation with a person who is mistreating me, or disrespecting me or not being truthful with me.
The best thing to do if you don't have therapy resources is to use books and this forum to share your stories, and to educate yourself. There are many forums on this site, and if you start reading them some of them may be helpful to you. Also you may like Outofthefog.net. That is where I started and I found it immensely helpful to get started. I did not know I had CPTSD until March of this year.
Also a group of us on this forum are doing a workbook called Adult Survivors of Child Abuse. There may be plans to start another group, and do the workbook again in a few weeks with new participants to this forum who are interested in working through their issues. I am participating in that group and though not all of it is applicable, a lot of it is and it has been helpful. So there is a possibility that course and workbook will be repeated. I definitely recommend that. You can access that forum at the bottom of the main Support Forum page and look through our postings and see if you think it would be relevant for your situation.
The steps that helped me were to figure out the origin of the CPTSD, then find out as much as I could about Personality Disorders and really get a good understanding of what was wrong with the people who caused me to have CPTSD. Then I read Pete Walkers book From Surviving to Thriving which was also very helpful. I have also read a number of books on Anger and why it is good for us, emotional healing and boundary setting. Respect Me Rules was one I found very practical and very helpful.
I did a ton of work on my own before I started therapy and actually was diagnosed. I have been working on this for about a year and a half now, but only started therapy about 16 weeks ago. So it is possible to go far without actual therapy with books and forums.
Again welcome and I am so glad you found us!
The best thing to do if you don't have therapy resources is to use books and this forum to share your stories, and to educate yourself. There are many forums on this site, and if you start reading them some of them may be helpful to you. Also you may like Outofthefog.net. That is where I started and I found it immensely helpful to get started. I did not know I had CPTSD until March of this year.
Also a group of us on this forum are doing a workbook called Adult Survivors of Child Abuse. There may be plans to start another group, and do the workbook again in a few weeks with new participants to this forum who are interested in working through their issues. I am participating in that group and though not all of it is applicable, a lot of it is and it has been helpful. So there is a possibility that course and workbook will be repeated. I definitely recommend that. You can access that forum at the bottom of the main Support Forum page and look through our postings and see if you think it would be relevant for your situation.
The steps that helped me were to figure out the origin of the CPTSD, then find out as much as I could about Personality Disorders and really get a good understanding of what was wrong with the people who caused me to have CPTSD. Then I read Pete Walkers book From Surviving to Thriving which was also very helpful. I have also read a number of books on Anger and why it is good for us, emotional healing and boundary setting. Respect Me Rules was one I found very practical and very helpful.
I did a ton of work on my own before I started therapy and actually was diagnosed. I have been working on this for about a year and a half now, but only started therapy about 16 weeks ago. So it is possible to go far without actual therapy with books and forums.
Again welcome and I am so glad you found us!