I am so jealous of you Woodsgnome,!! i would love to be able to totally retreat into the woods, i have done it as much as poss in middle England but it's not quite the thing!
this conversation is interesting to me because you guys all seem to have flashbacks as kind of discrete events, whereas i live in a constant state of it; i dream almost every nite of the cult i was in, and every day is a struggle with panic, and most of the time i don't even know what i am afraid of, i am just afraid all the time. the only variation is in intensity, depending on whether something specific triggers me off into a biggie.
after a biggie i tend to close down and i get very very tired and low for a few days. exercise helps, just to get myself moving. music is good too, tho not always. it's being tough at the moment. this is as open as i have been and i hope i don't put anyone off. you guys are v. brave, i think.
this conversation is interesting to me because you guys all seem to have flashbacks as kind of discrete events, whereas i live in a constant state of it; i dream almost every nite of the cult i was in, and every day is a struggle with panic, and most of the time i don't even know what i am afraid of, i am just afraid all the time. the only variation is in intensity, depending on whether something specific triggers me off into a biggie.
after a biggie i tend to close down and i get very very tired and low for a few days. exercise helps, just to get myself moving. music is good too, tho not always. it's being tough at the moment. this is as open as i have been and i hope i don't put anyone off. you guys are v. brave, i think.