hey, a.a.,
couple of things came to mind. i have some of the same issues you mentioned, as i live in a house with 4 other people. making sure the shower is empty, the bathroom isn't occupied, and someone isn't doing laundry when i want to - yep, i can relate.
i just can't afford my own place, so renting a room in someone's house was my best option. the owner is pretty much a clean freak, so there are higher standards i have to live up to then i'm used to. i would prefer to live by myself as well, but i don't think of that as a control issue. especially in your case - i think it's a self-care issue.
it's difficult to feel safe and at ease when you have to listen to blaring tv's and arguments. (happily, this place is very quiet and subdued). it's an infringement on your personal space to have to clean up after another. and, as far as making your own space your own, i know that one well.
the owner had this room decorated according to her own taste when i first moved in. altho i couldn't choose the color of the walls, etc., and it's furnished with her furniture, i was quick to replace her pictures with my own wall hangings, and make her decor my own as much as possible. it's unconventional, but it's mine and makes it homier for me.
as far as what to tell your friend, some of my go-to reasons for declining something is 'it's not a good fit for me', or 'it;s just not working for me'. if she presses for an explanation, one can always say something like 'i can't really explain it', or 'something just doesn't feel comfortable for me'. keep it personal by saying 'for me'. if she presses further, the old standby - 'i don't really know. it's just me, i guess'.
i've had a similar experience with support groups in the past, both online and in real life. i gave them a shot - this is the only place i've felt at home, part of the community. for whatever reason, the rest didn't quite fit my needs. i'm comfortable here, tho, and for that i'm grateful. glad you're here as well.
sending you a big hug filled with perseverance and confidence.
couple of things came to mind. i have some of the same issues you mentioned, as i live in a house with 4 other people. making sure the shower is empty, the bathroom isn't occupied, and someone isn't doing laundry when i want to - yep, i can relate.
i just can't afford my own place, so renting a room in someone's house was my best option. the owner is pretty much a clean freak, so there are higher standards i have to live up to then i'm used to. i would prefer to live by myself as well, but i don't think of that as a control issue. especially in your case - i think it's a self-care issue.
it's difficult to feel safe and at ease when you have to listen to blaring tv's and arguments. (happily, this place is very quiet and subdued). it's an infringement on your personal space to have to clean up after another. and, as far as making your own space your own, i know that one well.
the owner had this room decorated according to her own taste when i first moved in. altho i couldn't choose the color of the walls, etc., and it's furnished with her furniture, i was quick to replace her pictures with my own wall hangings, and make her decor my own as much as possible. it's unconventional, but it's mine and makes it homier for me.
as far as what to tell your friend, some of my go-to reasons for declining something is 'it's not a good fit for me', or 'it;s just not working for me'. if she presses for an explanation, one can always say something like 'i can't really explain it', or 'something just doesn't feel comfortable for me'. keep it personal by saying 'for me'. if she presses further, the old standby - 'i don't really know. it's just me, i guess'.
i've had a similar experience with support groups in the past, both online and in real life. i gave them a shot - this is the only place i've felt at home, part of the community. for whatever reason, the rest didn't quite fit my needs. i'm comfortable here, tho, and for that i'm grateful. glad you're here as well.
sending you a big hug filled with perseverance and confidence.