Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[NarcKiddo]

I know exactly what you mean about the gym.

Is there an AA meeting nearby you could go to? I have never been to one (though I am no stranger to alcohol) but the support and acceptance sounds to me like a good thing.

You certainly deserved a reward after your 7 days without drinking. Maybe there is something else that would feel rewarding and would align better with your overall goal? When I was trying to lose weight I had to get a bit creative about what would feel like a reward but not put me off track.

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
Just sending you a hug and hoping that this next day will be a good one for you - you have done so well to do 7 days without drinking. 
Here's the hug  and also some sunshine 
Hope 

[Bermuda]

it's like replacing emotional pain with physical pain.   

Such a relateable quote. I do this too. I realise it. I barter with, down talk, punish myself, and replace my thoughts with physical feelings... As if we have to deserve happiness. Living up to the invisible person who lives inside... Not a nice person. Probably not you. I don't know a lot of AA, so I am quite afraid I will say something wrong. I hope you find help. It's good to cheer yourself on, and pat yourself on the back. A side step is not a loss and says nothing to the journey you are on.

Here for you.

[Larry]

there are AA meetings near me NC ,  I have been a few times,  just need to go again,
  thank you so much Hope !   I needed that, 
thank you bermuda,     I really appreciate the support from everyone,
  i did not make it to the gym today,  but i did play pickleball this morning and got some work done this afternoon. 

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
Pickleball sounds good! 
Hope 

[StayInTheLight]

Congratulations, Larry! I'm new to this forum and reading about your big step is very inspiring. Thank you for sharing!

[Larry]

Thank you  !!    I have been doing good,  trying to stay busy and active. 

[NarcKiddo]

I have been doing good,  trying to stay busy and active. 

Great to hear. 

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
Hope you are enjoying some sunshine today - if not, here is some 
Hope 

[Larry]

thank you NK and Hope !
   I was feeling depressed yesterday,  but i got through the day.   Kind of feeling lonely this evening,  i did not go to the gym today.   
tomorrow is a new day,   

[NarcKiddo]

It's never nice to feel depressed and lonely. You did well to get through the day and I hope today is better.

[Larry]

Thank you NK,   I really need to find some friends,  I get depressed a lot when I am alone.  the AA meetings were nice,  I need to go again

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
I hope your day is going ok.  Here is some sunshine and a smile for you too.   
Hope 

[Larry]

thank you hope !
  I don't really know what to do today,   i feel like i can not trust the people i work with,  and they are the only friends i have.   i have been spending most of my time alone,  i am trying not to get depressed.   i might go to the gym today,  i need to get out of the house

[Papa Coco]

Larry

AA helped me quit drinking. I went every day for a long time. I know the struggle well, and I'm pulling for you, sir.

I'm thinking of you. That loneliness is tough to deal with. I know it well.